Yes, I'm pretty much still alive and haven't forgot about the things that I wanted to do and that I mentioned in my last Journal like 5 months ago. I'm really inconsistent with my drawing practice and left my tablet untouched for quite a long time. I came to think about a few things in my life and I don't feel very motivated to do anything at all. But I think if I start all over now and get a hang of myself and gather the strength to do something productive, that this may be a unique opportunity to stick to what I'm doing. I never pulled anything through in my life, neither school nor sports nor anything else. All I did was basicly playing videogames all day long. I'm now facing the consequences of my doing and uninstalled almost every game there is on my harddrive except games with a good story and minecraft, I will stick to those. Hopefully this will help me to concentrate more and most importantly to not get distracted. And this will be my last attempt trying to learn drawing and if I neglect everything again, I will cut it off and sell my tablet to someone who puts it to better use then I did up to this point. Also my Pixelstick arrived after a few months delay and I also left it untoched until now and I missed so many beautiful days where I could have made some real good shots.
I really need every support I possibly can, especially in the past months I had (and still have) to fight against a giant amount of demotivation and I'm easily getting frustrated. I hope this gets better with time, but at the moment I feel really horrible.
This is all I have to say at this moment. Maybe I'm writing Journalentries more frequently now. :/